I can’t quite wrap my head around the fact that I am writing this on September 10th! Where did this summer go? It seems to have gone by in a blink of the eye. My intentions were to write on this blog at least weekly, really they were, but the time has gotten away from me and other matters consumed my time as well.
Summer is my favorite time of year, with the exception of August. It happens to be my birthday month, but so many other events have occurred during this month, I have come to dread it. Both of my parents passed during August and them my husband passed during this month 4 years ago. Yes, I have made it 4 years, and I can still remember when I didn’t think I would make it to the next day. So much has changed in these last 4 years and yet so much has remained the same.
This year in August I added another anniversary of a passing to the list! My cat Bam Bam passed unexpectedly on the 9th. I had him since he was a kitten and found him under my deck. I had him for 13 years and he along with my two Westies were my life savers during the worst of this grief process. It was a shock to loose Bam Bam and another reminder of the fragility of life. I miss him and my dogs are still looking for him. Another lose, another change, another reminder that life is forever changed, another “new normal” to get used to.
My Westies and I are adjusting to life without Bam Bam. Losing my cat is not as traumatic as the lose of my husband, but my wounds of grief are only scabbed over and this has ripped some of the scabs open. I don’t think these wounds will ever just be a scar, I think they will always be scabs that will bleed from time to time!
We miss and love you Bam Bam!